I remember writing a story based off this “poem” at…nineteen? Maybe. When my Ex and I were first starting to sniff each other out.

“First they came for the Communists
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a Communist
Then they came for the Socialists
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a Socialist
Then they came for the trade unionists
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a trade unionist
Then they came for the Jews
And I did not speak out
Because I was not a Jew
Then they came for me
And there was no one left
To speak out for me.”

It’s lost. The thing I wrote.

And I never thought something I’d written would come back to haunt me.


I am a Fool.

First time I’d ever written like my life was depending upon it. A story about someone who thought they’d had a good life but then it got upended when then…got upended and realized that what I wanted wasn’t what I was was taught to be.

Wrote about the feeling of being trapped in wire and concrete, just because of who I am. Because in the mid-late Eighties? What I was. And what I wantetd?

Still forbidden to most except those who could see the ultimate truth.

Love. Is. Love.

I am A Lesbian.

Black Triangle and all.

And a coward. Because what’s happening now brings me back to that story, that I wrote in blue ink on white paper bound in a notebook.

The one where I die in the end for who I am.


Funny thing about age.

I am blindingly terrified.


I would like to think thatI’ll go down fighting.

We’ll see.


Shut up and watch this

The only difference between what we did to the Japanese living in the U.S during World War II and what the Nazis did to Jews, Homosexuals*, Romani, Catholics, Communists, ANYONE who didn’t agree with the Government, pretty much most of Eastern Europe?

We didn’t shoot them down into mass graves or shove them into a Zyklon B gas chamber and then stuff them into an oven to burn up and out of a chimney in a puff of smoke.

But we did everything else the Nazis did. We took away their homes. We took away their businesses. We took away their goods and their pets and their land and loaded them onto cattle cars to Concentration Camps. Don’t let the word “Internment” fool you.

Just ask George “Mr. Sulu” Takai. He lived through it.

The following comes from the NY Times, written by Kevin Baker, who was “lucky” enough to be at St. Joseph Episcopal Church where the standard “service before swearing in” took place:

Donald J. Trump began his first day as president listening to a favorite Baptist preacher, Robert Jeffress, who has suggested that the Catholic Church was led astray by Satan, that Mormonism and Islam both “came from the pit of hell,” that gay people lead a “miserable” and “filthy” lifestyle, that Mr. Trump’s predecessor, President Barack Obama, was “paving the way” for the Antichrist — and that God Himself made Mr. Trump president.

We destroyed the lives of over 110,000 AMERICANS because they were “Other”. They were “The Enemy”.

And now it could happen again. Not just to Muslims. But to ANYONE the incoming “Government” considers OTHER.

Including me.

They’ve already proven it by taking down the White House website pages to LGBTQ Rights and Civil Rights, the Department of Labor report on LGBTQ rights in the workplace, Climate Control, and THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING.

Over Twelve Million Human Beings were exterminated in Europe during World War 2. Don’t you ever, EVER think that this could not happen here. It has once already. Just minus the gas chambers.


*And by this I mean Gay Men. Lesbians? They didn’t bother to count. The Pink Triangle symbol that became popular in the 80’s was taken from what the men bore. Lesbians were assigned a black triangle.

And before you come at me with “the Japanese did this that the other…” Yes. They did. I know this. The rape of Nanking. The many massacres in the Philippines. The POW camps and what occured in them. The barbarity. I’m not stupid. What I am talking about, right in my here and now, is the fact that we’re trying to make palatable for consumption by all the elements of America that USED to be called Neo-Nazis into the “Alt-Right”.

Fuck. That.